2003 06 05

Do you suffer fools gladly? If not, does using a smart, witty put-down leave you feeling a little guilty? (For verbally disembowelling somebody who's about a kilo short of the brains to fight back.)

It depends on the fool. The deliberately stupid, or people who act ignorantly when they're well aware that they could act better, no; I don't suffer them gladly at all. In the past year or so, however, I've learned to simply ignore the people that I used to want to slap up the head with a stack of clue-by-fours. There is nothing on this earth worth taking on useless feelings for. It's a waste of my energy, my pride, my good name, and it's just plain cruel. And yes, there are times I feel crushingly guilty for having a go at someone. I don't attack people as I once did. There's no point to it. No point in getting that bothered, or staying that way. And what kind of soul would I be (or what kind of soul would I have) for attacking people that I know I could dance circles around? If one cannot defend or help those weaker than oneself in some way, one should simply leave them alone. In the aftermath of such things, I think to myself, "My gawd, what kind of bitch am I?" Fortunately I've learned to learn from such things, and avoid them. I don't need the bad karma, and they sure as hell don't need it.