lonita.net - fears

bugs crawling on my face, finding bugs in my bed - I suppose that's more of a freakout fear than it is a deep-seeded emotional fear
that my efforts will bear no fruit
that death will take me before I've had a chance to accomplish what I want to, or it'll take me just when I've started to do what fulfills me
not that I'll die alone physically, so much as I'll have no one who'll want to be with me when that time comes
that I'll be forced to settle for less than what I truly want or deserve, because that's all I'll be able to get from life
that I've used it all up in one go, and there'll be nothing left for next time
that people will think I'm some kind of fraud