Last week I couldn't find my wallet, that had about $30 in it. When I realised it was gone, I tried to work myself up into being upset about it, but it wasn't coming off. Then I realised something, that I was trying to work myself into an upset because I thought that's how I was supposed to feel about losing it. I wasn't upset about it being gone at all, so I ditched the mood immediately.
The wallet turned up not long after.
It's not entirely unlike people of certain ages acting certain ways because they think that's how people that age are supposed to act. Fuck that noise, my lovelies. I will be as I am, that is all.